Power Surge

I feel as if I am experiencing a power surge in terms of the energy that I am feeling.
Not just the physical kind of energy, the actively accomplishing a ton of stuff kind of energy.

The kind of Energy that is carried by Love.
The kind of Energy that is much more and much deeper than the mental Energy that we all need to do the tasks needed to be done in a day.

When I think about why I started drinking, one thing really stands out.
As a child, I had A LOT of Energy.
Not just the physical running around a lot kind of energy-although I definitely had loads of that.
But my Prana was so strong!
So much so, that I really don’t think my parents knew how to handle it.
The message I received was that it was NOT ok!
(to be clear, I am not saying that my Energy was any stronger than any other child’s or that I am in any way unique in that sense)

I figured out early that alcohol numbed that Energy down. Of course that’s not how I looked at it then-didn’t even think about it.
But that’s what was happening. Once I started drinking, every time I started to feel that surge, I drank. Thinking that I was feeling so good! Why not! That’s what you do! Let’s top it up-make a good thing better!

I realize that I have rarely, since I was 15 or so,  let that energy go and see where it takes me. I have not let myself feel totally and naturally buzzed for a period of time-without drinking-thereby, bringing it down.

I have not let my Life Force flow freely and take me in the direction that I am meant to go.
I will admit that yesterday, the evil voice within suggested celebrating my good feelings with a bottle of wine. I told it to “shut the fuck up and go away!”

So, I’m feeling excited. A little scared. And VERY curious about how it will be .
How I will be.
*I had absolutely no problem telling the Chiropractor the other day that I had quit drinking!
Just came right out! No stuttering, no hesitation, nada!


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