100 Days

“If you can improve one percent each day, then guess what?
In 100 Days, you will have improved 100%”
Coach Carter

Wow! I have gone 100 Days without drinking!
I can’t believe it!
I can’t believe that I’ve gone so long and at the same time, I can’t believe that it’s already been 100 days!

I am so grateful and feel so blessed to have arrived at this point.
I also believe that the time had come-well the time had come years ago and I had a lot of false starts and broken promises to myself.  But, I was finally able to take that first step and stick with it.

How do I feel after 100 days? I feel…
GREAT! I have had a transition of energy that is hard to describe. Up until about Day 60, I was bone tired ALL the time. Exhausted. But then, right at the 60th day without alcohol, my energy started to return and to grow. This energy has made me….

Much more productive-I’ve always been a productive person. But, it’s different now. There’s an ease about things that wasn’t there before and my sense of accomplishment is much different. By allowing myself to just “Be”, I am…

So much CALMER! That’s an understatement! Not just when I was drinking, but up until about Day 60, I was a crazed, flying off the handle at nothing-irritable looney tune of a woman!
Anger always simmering just below the surface-ready to blow my top at the smallest thing!
At one point, I was swearing so much I started to wonder if I had developed some form of alcohol abuse related Aspergers!

I sleep better and even when I’m not sleeping well, I’m not experiencing all of the mental anguish that goes along with drinking. And because I’m not drunk when I got to bed…

I am aware of drifting off to sleep-as opposed to just passing out! The first few times I caught myself drifting off, I was surprised and had to tell myself what it was! It was an almost new sensation for me!

Because I am not drinking…
I am not so hard on myself. I am learning to go easy on myself. Learning not just to love myself, but to like myself. To acknowledge my good points and not bash myself with the things that I don’t like. Not hating what I see in the mirror. Excited to greet each day because….

I have a new found curiosity about things! Almost like visiting a new place-wondering how it will be, how my day will be, what I will encounter-because….

I’m not spending almost all of my waking hours thinking about alcohol in one way or another. And, speaking of spending …

I have saved a ton of money! Even inexpensive wine adds up!
All of these things have led me to..

A newfound sense of FREEDOM!
Freedom! No longer confined by the restraints that were imposed on me by my need to drink. Freedom to experience the Joy in living without a ball and chain in the form of a wine bottle!

To be honest, I’m not sure that I even gave 1% everyday. At the beginning it was all I could do to make it through the day, often convinced that I was seriously mentally ill. Scattered. Shattered. Barely hanging on.  1% isn’t much but it adds up. Even when it’s the same 1% for days and days.

Who’d have thought!

 

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